: No relatives, the author's year has ended early.

My parents went out on the third day of junior high school, and I was the only one left at home...

I didn't have a car, and I didn't know how to drive. When I went to visit relatives, I needed someone else to pick me up. I didn't want to trouble others. So after other relatives picked me up on the fourth day of the lunar new year, I stayed at the relatives 'house that treated me..

Originally, I thought I would sleep here for one night, and the next day I would follow this relative to another relative's house, and so on and so forth until the eighth day of the lunar new year, when I had finished visiting all relatives..

But on the fifth day of the lunar new year, a relative wanted to go to Changsha. I took his car and went out early..

Why don't you visit all your relatives and go out later? Maybe it's because I'm a little sensitive. Other people's homes are busy during the New Year. The family of three are neat and tidy, walking here and there together. I'm alone..

Seeing my cousins talking and laughing with my parents, I was a little envious and wanted to cry..

My parents 'relationship has not been very good. In previous years, two basically did not go home for the Spring Festival. Sometimes one came back occasionally. This year, two came back. To be honest, they were quite happy..

But on the second day of the second day, they quarreled again. On the same day, they packed up their things. The next day, they rushed to things. The lively home for two days became deserted again..

I remember when I was a kid, I liked sticking with my dad the most. He drove a motorcycle, drove there, and I followed him there..

When I was in elementary school, I was a boarding school with a month off. My mother would come to see me once or twice a month, and what I looked forward to most every day was that she would bring delicious food to visit me.

Later, I don't know when everything changed. My parents didn't get along with each other (there was no divorce). The feelings between me and them became weaker and weaker..

From junior high school to college, I stayed at Grandpa's house. They basically didn't come back and didn't ask about me. The chat on WeChat was basically that I asked them for living expenses and tuition fees..

How should I put it…Although my parents are still alive, sometimes I feel that I am no different from an orphan. After my grandfather died in my second year of high school, I really seem to have become an orphan. I buy vegetables by myself, cook by myself, take a bus by myself, go to school by myself, and celebrate the New Year by myself..

Laughing during the day, playing with classmates, heartless, occasionally hiding in the quilt at night secretly crying.

Later, I grew up and got used to it. I haven't cried since college..

Unexpectedly, they all came back this year. The three of them ate New Year's Eve dinner, which gave me a warm illusion that I couldn't stand the loneliness after the excitement..

In previous years, I was used to visiting relatives alone, but this year, somehow, I suddenly couldn't stand it anymore, so I decided to go out to work halfway..

Sitting in someone else's car for a few hours, head dizzy, do not know what to think, a little lonely, a little uncomfortable, I want to cry, but did not cry.

When my relatives sent me to Changsha, it was already 12 o'clock at night. I felt that God seemed to have a problem with me. It rained not long after I got off the bus..

It was a last-minute decision to go out with relatives, so I didn't book a hotel in advance. I didn't expect the hotel business to be so good during the Spring Festival. They were all full of guests..

Night, rain.

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: In a strange city, I dragged a heavy suitcase, carried a schoolbag, held a mobile phone navigation, and found a place to live one by one.

It took me an hour to find a hotel that was not full. I accidentally sprained my ankle on the way. I felt inexplicably wronged and wanted to cry, but I didn't cry..

The hotels I stayed in before never cost more than 100 yuan. This hotel costs more than 300 yuan. It's a bit painful to spend the money..

I plan to work in Yunnan this year. I spent more than 400 yuan to book a second-class seat. As a result, I was stupid when checking in. I stood according to the ticket gate on my mobile phone, but it changed the ticket gate temporarily..

I stood there, the train to Yunnan, right next to me, started checking tickets, and by the time I realized it, it had stopped checking tickets and the train was gone..

I changed my ticket on my mobile phone before, so I can't change my ticket anymore. I asked the counter staff, and she said I can't refund the ticket either. I can only buy another ticket..

The second-class seat was gone. I bought a first-class seat with more than 700 yuan. It was my first time staying in such an expensive hotel. It was my first time buying a first-class seat. It was a good pain to spend this money, especially wasting more than 400 yuan in vain..

Sitting there waiting for the bus again, my heart kept chagrin how stupid I was, and at the same time, I felt very wronged..

This more than 400 yuan may be the last straw to crush the camel, I suddenly cried, so many people in the waiting room, I am a height of one meter eight boy crying like what?

At first, I pretended that I didn't sleep well at night and yawned before I shed tears, but I couldn't stop them. More and more tears came..

A lot of sad things rushed to my heart, I think my parents may not care about me long ago, next year I do not want to come back, at home is a person, outside is also a person, there is no difference.

Work during the day, write novels in the rental house at night, just like last year, every day is very fulfilling, a person is also very good, used to it.

In the future, I will be alone. I can already earn money to support myself. I don't need them anymore. I don't want to contact them anymore. They give me living expenses and tuition fees for my studies. I will just give them a pension..

Of course, I'm not alone. I have a group of book friends. There are a group of people waiting for me to update. I've also read the information you urge me to update. It's not that the author doesn't want to update. It's really that I don't have time these two days. The update affects the data. I want stable updates more than any of you..

I got carsick by car. Yesterday I came to Changsha and sat for five or six hours. Then it rained and I looked for a hotel. I was numb..

It took five and a half hours to take the high-speed train today. I arrived at the station at 10:00 p.m. I was physically and mentally exhausted. I really didn't have the energy to write a book..

This book is definitely going to be finished, and it will definitely be updated steadily, but please give the author a few more days. The author will go to see the house tomorrow and rent a house. As long as the place to live is stable, it will immediately resume normal updating!

These words, there is no one around to tell, do not want to tell the true feelings of others, and strange and familiar book friends to say it.

This is a moment of emotion, impulse to write the word, perhaps after a period of time I will delete it, but also may have been kept in mind at this moment in the mood.

In short, the future is still uncertain, sad is only temporary, I hope you can after all wishes come true, happy every day, cool life!

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